Sent to you by moya via Google Reader:
"ROAD WEARY TROUBADOUR / MAYBE I'M AN AMBASSADOR/ NOT TO BE CONFUSED WITH SOME SPOOK OR BASTARD BY THE DOOR" -CHUCK D, Tear Down That Wall
i want to find a way to say:
i understand that your actions are rooted in strategies for survival and self-preservation. i know that you are in a place where that need is more than legimate. i am proud that you are a fighter. i admire you for surviving isolation, exclusion, and all that comes with living in a world where you can not be your beautiful whole self.
but, because i love what we have built together,
i also have to say that your survival strategies are perpendicular to the work you, i and others have done to build beloved community. every day you are laying your loyalties down with institutions that have (historically) (and in the present) hurt us collectively and individually. though you may win merit with them, your survival comes from siding with people who will never be accountable to us as a people. these are people who hurt us and instead of being outraged or crying out in pain, you are washing your own blood off their hands.
to be frank, i/we are learning to love ourselves too much to allow ourselves to be expendable casualties caught in the way of your surivival. i can't imagine a life without you but i also know we can't keep on like this.
i/we love us. so i/we will not let you hurt us. please let me/us love you too.